Tuesday morning hurts....I seem to have woken up on the wrong side of the bed today. These are some of the thoughts I have.

My muscles ache today. My ankles and back hurt. My chest is a little stressed...like with anxiety or worry.

I am sad about my body condition. Just bummed that I am still stuck in this same place. I feel like the coccoon in which this "butterfly" is stuck will never go away. I need help.

I hate when I wake up and feel bad....and then a friend does or says something that adds to it...and you take too much of it out on them. Even if what they said hurt.

I said I was sorry...no text response....so now I feel extra-bad.....I hate that too.

Why does love hurt so much sometimes?

I have school today and I need to study more. But I dont.

I have so much on my plate right now. And if I didnt have to work...I might enjoy life right now. Good things to do....but work takes my energy and joy sometimes.

I feel bad for complaining when there are people who have real things to feel bad about.

I need to be more of a "walk-away" type person and not so much of a "reactor". I am getting better at this...but still not great.

I need some God time. I need to make some better choices about things I know I NEED to do.

I am thankful for all my girlfriends. All these people popping up outta now where. I have needed you and you are there. Just this morning....Kristie, Kelley and Nancy had already messaged me...and I had emails from Lori and Stacey to read....and all the comments on my last blog....thanks guys. Love you.

As David and Joseph did.....I will PRAISE HIM and Honor God with the rest of my day. I mean it is only 9:00 am...this will turn around. I will forgive myself for the mistakes I have made....and trust God to make things right. Isnt that part of what Dad's are supposed to do? I need you to be that kind of Dad today Lord. And I will sit on your lap...rest and fall asleep. I need that most of all.

Trouble and distress have come upon me, but your commands are my delight. Psalm 119:143