Right now I am hanging at Lori's house after an amazing dinner that was made for me. (THANKS LORI) We are just having a nice evening in. I had a really busy day. I am officially a University of Michigan student. YEAH! I start next Thursday. Pray for me as I go back into the world of school. My plan is that in the next few years I will be graduating as a teacher. It will be my honor to love young people and help them succeed in the world. God will have me doing a mighty work in public schools. I also went to get an oil change and to get a loan at the bank and did wash and cleaned. LOTS of things on my day off. So I got to Lori's and she said I had another "comment" on my blog. I just finished reading it and I hope things can just get to normal soon out here in blog land. Just for the record, I realized with a friends help (thanks again boo) that the wheel chair thing couldve been taken wrong...and that was NEVER my intention. I was just sharing my night at the church. NO ONE involved was thinking we would hurt someone with our actions. That doesnt mean someone couldnt have had an issue with it. I am truly sorry if that bothered "anonymous". It was just something we did and it didnt hurt ANYONE there that night. But I can see where that can come from. Totally not intended. Ok...second. There is so much written in the last the comment...I probably cant hit it all. So I will say a coupe things. I get that some people can seem "unapproachable" but I never want to seem that way. I think it best if at all possible that the things that are being written about could be talked about with me. I would love to fix them and talk about it in person cause it cant be completely addressed here. We cant hear each other or truly know the way the words are being said. Just so you know me a little better.....I am a work in progress like most people. God is constantly speaking to me and changing me. There is so much that needs to be healed and fixed. God is so faithful and is my loving best friend. I am so much further along than even a year ago...but so much is to come. I am more than a singer or worship leader. It is a high privilege I have that I dont take lightly. I know that "to whom much is given much is required" and I need to honor God with my whole life...on and off the stage. This is something I try to do DAILY. This stuff isnt something I "put on"...it is who I am. I want to be authentic in all areas of my life...from singing to leading students...to friends...and to God. I have many people to hold me accountable and I get challenged and pushed further in my faith....everything is not a "pat on the back" and praises about my singing. I dont want there to be this illusion of some "perfect life" or only good things being said to me...that is not reality. There is so much of my life that is so not that way. I am blessed for sure....even with just health and MUCH MUCH more that we all take for granted....but it is not all praise from everyone. As for my friends and all their comments....while I was actually surprised people came out to say anything in my defense....I think it best for all of us to be careful with our words. No matter what, we are accountable and we are to only say what is useful for building the body. I truly didnt have a problem with the "wheelchair" comment....it was the not signing it that I struggle with. I know anonymous from before appologized...and I just kinda thought that because of where that went....that kind of thing would stop. I was out of town when that happened and I followed what I felt like the Lord said to me and said nothing about it. The apology had been written and I accepted it. There were possible valid points written...but since I didnt know who wrote it...I couldnt speak to what that person had been through. I am sure that sometimes it can look like the PT is only friends with each other...but I dont feel like I am like that. I have plenty of friends that are not on PT and they are very close friends. Probably my closest friend Stacey is on PT but we actually got close from a Bible Study offered by Oxygen back in the day...not music. Nancy and I have become better friends in the last year...and we have sung for years together. Just like when I am in RustProof leading....I hang with and go out with them....cause we spend SOOO much time togther. Anytime you are on the "front lines" doing ministry with people you get closer to them then normal. Kinda like at GOC time...we all get so close...and sometimes it stays that way and sometimes it doesnt. But ultimatley....if I knew who that person was...I wouldve loved to sit and talk and help get some clarafication to that. Maybe some people seem that way...but maybe that is just how it "seems". We are just serving there....and growing to love the Lord....one day at a time. But this kind of thing has to be talked about face to face. So hard on something like this. Even if I seem hard to talk to...Stacey or Nancy??....I dont think they seem that way. And lastly...I just think this doesnt edify the body...it is seeming to cause more of an issue than anything. I am NOT against "correction" but I need to know that the person is really for helping me...not just saying things without knowing me or being "for" me. This is why I have to believe the Bible does say come to one another. There is nothing in there that says you have to be outspoken to speak up. That is why we even have the option to bring someone with us in confrontation. No one is exempt from having to go to a person when they have an issue. Do I think anonymous comments will end on this blog...probably not...but I sure hope that people will feel more open to talk to me....and that my friends will read any of this and think before we act or speak. We all need to stop judging and start loving and truly only say what builds each other up. I will never be perfect in this blog or life...I promise you I will mess up....but I promise....the Lord will let me know...and I want to be more like him than I want to please anyone. Thanks for your comments....and please....if you ever feel at all like coming to me....I promise I wont bite. I am really softer then I come across at times. I love hugs. God bless...and have a great weekend everyone.